i chose to smile frm a lil of i kno.
wht edmund say was right.
if in any way she still respects me,
she'd think twice abt it and nt do it.
and they always say....
its nvr worth it.
so, i chose to fake a smile. :D
goodnight.

back in 2004 till now.

how much we've changed frm time to time.
how many ppl we've lost along the way.
those times were good; and nvr forgotten.

Krystal and I



KaMon and I



LinTze and I



Sarah and I



Melissa and I



Azrin and I



LeeHooi and I



Alvin and I



PikYie and I



Megan and I



Atthiya and I



Vincent and I



KianThong and I



Bryan and I



Thomas and I



Jasmine and I



SeowShee and I



Natasha and I



CaiJin and I



Joey and I



PeiYee and I



LeeLing and I



Justyne and I



Edmund and I



MayLyn and I



Nicholas and I



Kimberly and I



MayYi and I



Triffany and I



Sharina and I



Amelia and I



Michelle and I









as time passes,
we change by appearance and personality; in and out
along the way we've got to learn how to
appreciate wht we have and cherish it all.

xoxo

" if you love him tht much,let him go.If you cant let go,then it isnt love "

" whn you feel empty, you tend to miss the one you once loved. no! you dont need him back, you were only missing wht you both had before; his presence. "

"if he doesnt love her back the way she does, then he doesnt deserve her"








can you tell tht im so goddamn happy today?
hahahah! i ta pau mich in foos! FOR THE FIRST TIME!

i wanna have fun. i wanna have joy.
i wanna feel loved. i wanna be filled with happiness.
i wanna laugh. i wanna smile all day.
i wanna feel the butterflies in my stomach.
i wanna grow thinner. i wanna be a better person.
i wanna be loved for me. i wanna stop fantisizing.
i wanna stop crying!
i just feel empty. heh.

and then again, im not emo.

its just scary watching days pass by, whn all i do is sit and watch things as it happens right infront of my eyes. i couldve done smth bout it, i could have. but i didnt. its hard to.

and then again, i got myself involved. im the middle person. pls understand. loves.

p/s : you're a whore. i swear to god, if i see you. im gonna punch you in the eye!
you dont kno how much i fucking hate you now. you whore! 'friend'? pfft.
LCJ!

all i ever wanted was for you to look through me.

the better me.

the new me.

it wasnt so hard, was it?
say this with me, APPRECIATE! :D

p/s : i'd say, you could've done better than tht

and no, im not emo.

btw, i need slimming pills; new hairdo;

whole body massage; and lastly, i want FUN!

okay, i just got back frm NOT penang. i went back perlis.

went into thailand for lunch and dinner. the food is mmmm yums. hahah

ive been eating non-stop and i mean NON-STOP since friday till today. the food is just so irresistable. lol. i think im eating off my depression. but wait, whts thr to depress abt? haha. okayy, ive been kinda thinking too much. dreaming bout things tht wouldnt come true, my heart aches. okay whatever. so, my trip was rather boring. my ass was stuck to the chair on a 5 hr ride. i need an ass massage! haha. so all i did was eateateat sleep eateateat sleep. hahah :D

But clouds are rolling in

Because I'm gone again



so, my mom went into thailand and did her pedicure for only 100 baht. and guess wht? i think they dont even kno the meaning of porn. they named their shop.....

PORN! hahahah :D

i went to the duty free. found many things tht actually mean smth to me.
bacardi limon. haha! kishen used to call me limon. funnyyy! :D

and then i saw packs of ciggies called...
WINSTON! hahah

then L&M hahah. im lame and bored la. ignore me!

and then on my way home. a lil of me. haha :D

ive been sleeping early these days and i mean wayy too early than my usual time. like 1 am and waking up tremendously early too 10am. pfft! my eyes are killing me! i need more sleep now.

goodnight. xoxo

i miss everyone!

losing our loved ones along the way.

we'd lose ppl along the way; the journey of life.
we'll just have to learn frm it.
you may refer it as mistakes you've done,
but no! its nth like it. those were lessons for you to learn frm
so you'll lead a better life. He did it for a reason.
i kno tht one day, they'll realized wht they've been missing/losing along the way.
and soon, they'll regret.
i believe tht everythings fair, tht they'll get theirs soon.
right now, we'll just have to wait for tht day.
and boy, i cant wait for tht day to come, whn he starts regretting. LOL
by then, i'll be laughing my ass off..

MY loveeeee!

btw, i'll be going penang tmr till sunday.
just so if you miss me, text me! heheh. joke!
im gonna miss the clown. heeee! :D
till then, xoxo



and fuckadoooldday. ive been gaining weight.
holymoly! im fat! :( this isnt a good thing.
who wants to go on a serious diet with me? mwahahah

they always say, nvr get too close to someone.
because you'll nvr know, tht one dayy.......
one day tht someone will eventually go behind ur back
and takes away everything you own!







so, anyways, i went Midvalley yday with mich, jas, hanken, and his kawan, simon.
we took the blardy train thr yday. stupid mom refuse to send us to Midvalley. so okay, we took. in the stupid train thrs those stupid ULU bangla/pakistanis/wtv-chiplak-place-they-come-frm-la. not tht im looking down on them but yeah. pfft! look at us like nvr see girls before. the fella kept smiling at me. looks at him *ROLLS EYES* hahah asses! but wtv la. mich was saying, we look like some siu che taking train oni. hahaha! and so we reached Midvalley! FINALLY! lol. we are the champions my friend~~~ hahahahahah so yea. met up with jas, then went for lunch in secret recipe. took a few pics. omg! i swear to god. nvr ever ask mich to take pics. results : BLURR PICS. hahaahah! we watched Prestige. Very very good movie. very interesting. but we were freezing like mad dogs thr. hahah thr was this scene in the movie whn sarah asked her husband 'Do you love me?' her husband replied 'not today' hahahahha! tht made me laugh like shit. very sad ending tho. i've grown to love foosball now. thts it. tht was my day. byebye XOXO

say with me F-A-T!

p/s : if your intentions were to bring me down, you've accomplished for tht second!
right now, you failed. YOU've got to learn how to appreciate!
i believe, soon you'll realize how much you've lost along the way.
take cares. good fucking luck for your spm!

it doesnt matter how long we've known each other.

it only matters hows fast my feelings for you grew. i was blind

the whole time, you were just putting on a show. *applause*
pretty good show you put on thr.
oh btw, i had fun playing your game too! ;D