sometimes...the me you see, just isnt me..

and i grew bigger, you nigga!




you're my disguise

sometimes they watch you cry..



no, i dont mean youu.
prolly, you! i dont knowww...
i might say, things are getting out of hands.
this isnt me, the foolish old shit who doesnt kno how to think.
i do think! i think think think and think!
but things has just been getting out of hands.
maybe... just maybe.. because, ive changed!
i couldnt possibly tell.. not a single bit..
the change in me which i couldnt see..
no, not in the mirror..
but in the eyes of others.
and yet i kept asking myself..
have i changed? i wonder.....
these questions, these feelings, these thoughts
have stuck in me.
once again, its repeating itself.
i'm stuck.. deep down somewhere
no, i cant keep these feelings in me anymore..
no, not these thoughts..
somehow, just somehow...its killing me inside..
after all, i might say...life goes on
mistakes i've made, i cant change
if only God would grant me a wish, i would wish for an eraser.
to erase all the past and the pain im encountering nowww...
im a fool, i kno i am!
i've been bad..
sigh, i was always too ego to say this..
i apologise for all the mistakes ive done..
for all tht ive caused..
im sorry!






i saw flashes..
history is repeating itself..
i see someone else..
some who doesnt look like me

in the mirror. sigh.

i'm not me!
ive kept too manyyy..
i a fool.
the biggest fool you can find!








ive got no one to turn to

would you rather have ONE best friend than TEN good friends?

i would say, 10 good friends! :D
how bout youuu?

love, taught me to lie..

abt a month ago i was reading this very interesting book called ' The Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom '

somewhr in between the chapters, i found this very meaningful quote.
which says.....




Holding anger is poison,
It eats you from inside.
We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us,
But hatred is a curve blade,
And the harm we do, we do to ourselves.



very meaningful indeed. its a book full of morals to learn from.
readdddd it! :D

it came from me and not him.

i finally found someoneeee..
and i wont forget the way you love me..

One would change themselves, if only the love they have is strong.

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Somehow, Someday.... I'd see the most wonderful thing in life

p/s: read Stephanie's blog...
the post whr she posted on the 12th of January. gooo READ!! haha

she's damnnnnnn adorable!

i want want want to go shoppinggg!
i wanna wanna get the things i want.
my pimples pimples are growing
and i dont likey likey it.
ughh! i want want so many things.
and i dont likeylikey you anymore.
you make me pissssss :( lol
and thts nono, not gooood!





dumbdumb, i want my gumgum.

maybe this could be somethinn...

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

" do not cry over wht has happen, smile because it alrd happened "



i knooooo, i havent been blogging.
ive got no internet connection nowwwww.
applying for maxis' broadbanddd.


" its abt wht you do, not wht you say "






p/s: you just don't get me back.

I guess I'll be abandoning my blog, since sch is starting.
NO? we'll see abt it. and YESH I'm not gonna swear anymore.

and i say, NO MORE vulgarity for me!

YOU HEAR ME?!

and i like guys with dimples! hahahah

"Good things don't last forever. It all comes to an end, someday"

A new year, always means a new beginning.
So, guide me along the way if I ever get lost.
A year has yet just ended.
I've lost a few people on the way,
A good friend who I've once trusted.
A guy who I've once loved.
And of course I've met new people.
How much one has changed.
We're all a year older.
I've learnt many lessons along the way.
And that everything happens for a reason.
Though I've lost a friend and a lover,
That doesn't mean life has to end.
And yet life still has to go on.
*Live life to the fullest.


I, here would like to apologize to every single one of my friends, ex-boyfriends, schoolmates, family members, my close friends and etcetc.

I'm sorry if I wasn't the perfect friend you've always expected.
I'm sorry if I wasn't the best girlfriend you ever wanted me to be.
I'm sorry if I wasn't your prefect daughter like the rest.
And if I've ever said something that I might have hurt you in any way, I'm sorry.




I've made mistakes along the way.
I've said things bad things bout people.
I know I made YOU cry, I'm sorry. -NCS-
I WILL try to be better this year.
A better friend, A better girlfriend,
And a better daughter.


Dear friend, -CJ-
I know you've made mistakes, and I did too.
All you had to do was to apologize.
I don't blame you for what has happen. It happened for a reason.
It was his call, me or you.
It wasn't easy to lose a friend just like that.
You've cared for me enough.
And thats the only way i could repay.
I WOULD give him to you.
My friend, life still goes on.


Dear friend, -ML-
If you're happy with who you're with right now, I'm happy for you.
I don't want things to get into our way, my friend.
However it is, I'm sorry if I've said anything that would've hurt you.
May the force be with you.

It all happens for a reason.
I love you all, my friends!

Spending new years eve with your besties wasn't bad at all.
Was good meeting friends I haven't been seeing for quite sometime.
Was ALL goood!
I love you, Chelle!
I'm sorry I left you all alone.
I would've came back earlier.
But I was caught up talking to a friend.
I'm sorry.
OMG! I've said so many sorry's in this post!
That's enough!


Curve was packed.
Saw many familiar faces.
Dwayne, I'm sorry la. It wasn't ME who promised you on going up genting this year.
Next year okayy? HAHAH!
New year was all goood.
Byebye 2oo6.
Hello SPM! sheeeesh






and NO MORE vulgarity for meee!
am gonna be a good girl :D
and, I miss you already!

Ahh, new year is making me all teary.
I need someone to listen to me now!

"if its meant to be, its meant to be"