you kno what i want for my bday?

JORDAN CHAN AND ENRIQUE IGLESIAS! :D:D:D:D

ive been sneezing since last night.
i think im gonna have flu.
ahh, so irritating!



p/s: THIS SATURDAY! LAUNDRY OKAYY?
change of plans.
anything call meeeee. goodnight

this whole most popular outgoing link thing, is a lie.
so rubbish. thr are links which i hadnt been clicking at all
and yet its shown tht its one of the top 10 outgoing links.
pffft lame!

For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something.
You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head,
so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere.
A kiss so hot and so deep you never want to come up for air.
You can't cheat your first kiss. Trust me, you don't want to.
Cause when you find that right person for a first kiss, it's everything.

Matt Costa - Astair

Matt Costa - Sunshine

why didnt you take the next step?

there was hope.

but you didnt see.

cause you were too afraid.

you said you were afraid i wasnt ready.

you thought.

you always thought.

now, its too late.

too late.

too too late.

but it would've been a miracle.

things would've change,

if only you took the next step.

if only you weren't afraid.

if only you didn't think so much.

life's not about regretting.

its about discovering the wonders of it.

but, when He found us.

He thought we were meant to be.

but you were only minutes away.

i guess He didnt have much time to give,

to the both of us.

people change.

feelings fade.

memories stays.

He's always want best for us all.

i kno He has.

but its whether you realise or not.

whether you have the guts.

i guess, the problem was...

you didnt have the guts.

and mayb, i too was afraid.

-fhk-

sometimes i think being a guy is so much easier

DON'T YOU THINK SO?

I've been tagged by Kimberlyyy!



1. Do you ever lie about your age?
- yeap, to be legal. haha

2. Do you prefer “sensitive guys” or “tough guys”?
- sensitive guys are so gay. tough guys are okay..

3. Do you prefer blonde or dark haired guys?
- dark haired. im asian, he's asian. well, not necessarily ahah

4. Are you currently single?
- yea

5. How many things in your past do you regret?
- almost everything i do.

6. Do you have a best friend?
- bestfriendS.

7. What do you want to be when you grow up?
- to be RICH hahaha

8. Who is the last person you hugged?
- wow, haha i think it was chelle.

9. Have you ever get your heart broken?
- yeap.

10. Have you ever thought of having a plastic surgery?
- lipo haha.

11. Do you like your life?
- without parents, YES!haha

12. Do you shop at Hollister?
- nope

13. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
- not tht i can think of.

14. Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
- haha yea, who hasnt?

15. Do you have more friends that are boys or girls?
- boys

16. How long have you had friendster?
- since 2003

17. Have you ever cheated on someone?
- not tht i can think of. mayb i did..

18. Has anyone ever cheated on you?
- hahah that slut, ofcourse he did.

19. Have you ever slapped a girl in the face?
- i guess not

20. What is one of your greatest fear?
- COCKroach

21. Have you ever skipped class?
- at least once or twice a week. heheehehe :D:D:D:D:D

22. Has anyone close to you ever passed away?
- yaa. not too long ago.

23. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
- sometimes.

24. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
- HAHAH yesss.. i even dream abt them haha

25. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater”?
- well, once A cheater, always A cheater. haha but ppl change. right?

26. Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out that you were right?
- not tht i can think of now. mayb thr is.

27. Do you ever wish you are famous?
- sometimes maybe. haha

28. Do you ever wish you are a guy?
- yesss, at times.

29. Do you think women smell nice in perfume?
- lame. some women onlyyyy..

30. I tag.....

NO ONE!

i'm sure you did too.
it wasnt only me.
but do they know?
i guess not.
shows that they dont.
have you not said anything?
DO YOU KNOW?
shows how human mentality works.
they work one way.
innocent looks is all you need.

approx 3 more months, SPM!
1 more month, TRIALS!
and not too long, im older..
life's just about living it, providing it, die with IT! haha
goodnight.

Like I said, disappearances happen.
Pains go phantom, blood stop running and
People--people fade away.
Theres more I have to say, so much more.
But, I've disappeared.

i'm dying soon.
my body's giving me problems. HAHA
and im sorry that i'm not perfect :/

i thought short hair was the "in" thing.


but it looks like braces are tooo..

ive got both! haha
damn pretty right? HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

fuck fuckety fuck fuck fuck

:( im rounder now.
fat, round and uglier.
booohooo!
you wont be seeing me anymoreee
till it grows. ahh!

i seriously have a bladder problem.
im going to dieeeee!

you know, hair is so precious
tht whn you cut, thrs no turning back
but to wait. GRRRR!

okay,

I THINK I HAVE BLADDER PROBLEM
which is so fun not okayy..
i wake up 2-3 times every morning just to sleep
i dont drink tht much water either :(
this is sad,
life is sad..

&&

I HAVE SORE THROAT
omg! i feel like sticking my fingers into my throat to scratch my tonsils.
soooooooo irritating i tell you!

&&

trials is coming, and ive not started studying
i feel so sleepy everyday
all i do is, wake up
go school, come back
sleep, wake up,
bathe, take my dinner
online/tv thn sleep again!
so unproductive i tell youuu..

i think im gonna die
my body system is going cuckoo
and my brain cells are dying
i think im gonna die
omgomg, im dyinggg..
HAHAHHAHA
fuck my bladder la.
i think im gonna wear pampers.
adult pampers ofcourse!
thn i wouldnt have to run to the toilet during the day and night
wahahahhaha!




i'm seeking for attention la! dont you get the hint? haha
yes, im lacking of attention from all of you




okay la, im gonna go out to cut my hair now!
goodbyeeee & i think im dying soon
hahahhahaha
im so funny la! -__- pffft

have you ever been cheated?

then decides to forgive

gave him another chance

because you love him

but he did not appreciate it

but to betray your love

once again

with another girl..

and yet you still want him

because you think its worth every minute

you keep trying so hard

so hard

to get back to him

he gives you hope

and he tells you things you want to hear

you thought you already won

to be with him again

but at the end of the day

it was all a lie

just a lie

a little white lie

i want to know

what would you do

if you were being treated this way..

what would you do?

love is supremely important


The fact is, there is no foundation, no secure ground, upon which people may stand today if it isn't the family. If you don't have the support and love and caring and concern that you get from a family, you don't have much at all.

if you like me,

can you tell whats my favourite color?

went mv last night with chelle, melia, jen and nick.

watched Dead Silence, the movie was okayy..

=X i screamed like a pussy.

hahahhahaha

"Beware the stare of Mary Shaw. She has no kids, but only dolls. And if you see her in your dreams, remember to never ever scream."

and and, i ta pao jen in foosball! :D:D:D:D:D
okay la, i kno im not that good. but he was showing off and stuff,
so yeaaa.. he made my day! hahahhaha
losaahhhh!
'drink up boy!'

i still hate you, and i guess i always will.. for the rest of my life
today, u piss me off.
first you said 'go out all you want, i dont care anymore'
then 10 minutes later you said 'frm now, youre not allowed to go out till trials ends'
i really dont know what you want from me.
you always told me that im studying for myself and tht its my future.
thn why do you care so much?
i reallyy hate you.
my birthday, you told me that i wasnt allowed to celebrate..
fuck you for all i care.
i hate you because youre selfish
youve nvr appreciated the things i did for you..
youve nvr told me you loved me.
i kno im nvr and will nvr be good enough for you..
you told me to respect you...
but how d'you expect me to respect you whn you dont even listen to me?
ive always wanted you to be my bestfriend, but i guess tht'll nvr happen..
i hate you, i always will.
goodnight.

some of you might think...

Smoking makes you HOT
Friends makes you POPULAR
Drinking makes you COOL
Boyfriend makes you PRETTY
Cash makes you RICH
Sex takes you to ANOTHER LEVEL

WHO EVER SAID DOING THESE THINGS TAKES YOU TO ANOTHER STAGE IN LIFE?
some ppl think doing these things would get them to somewhere better.
i know someone like this. someone who'd do these things like this to get to a better level in life.

picking up smoking as a 'hobby' doesnt make you hot.
it ruins your life, risks your health, it also makes you stupid.
we dont have to start lighting a cigarette because our friend does it all the time
we are who we are, and its best to stay who we are.

i will not say i would not smoke in the future, for i dont know wht the future holds for me..

but for now, id say.. i wouldnt pick up smoking

well, i tried. hahahhaha!

I broke up with someone a year ago and the last thing he said to me was
"You'll never find anyone like me again."
I'm thinking, "I should hope not! If I don't want you, why would I want someone like you."

love is a gamble.

if you're lucky & you know how to play the game well, you WIN.

but

if you're new to the game, and do not know the rules, you LOSE.

When things go wrong as they sometimes will, when road you are trudging seems all uphill, when the funds are low, and the debts are high, and you want to smile, but you have a sigh, when care is pressing you down a bit, rest if you must, but don't quit. Sucess is failure turned inside out, the silver tint of colors of doubt, and you never can tell how close you are, it may be near when it seems so far. So, stick to the fight. When you are hardest hit, it's when things go wrong that you must not quit.

"I'm eighteen and legal to have sex. Plus, my mom doesn't really cares."

"Then go rape girls la!"

"Ahh, dowan la. Damn tiring wan, later I cannot run fast anymore.."

HAHHAHAHA loser!

mistakes; errors are bound to happen.

i'm on second thoughts nowww...

guess whose birthday is todayyyy?
HAPPPPPPPPPYY BIRTHDAYYY YEO SHER LINNNNN!

tell me what you want okayy?
or ill bring you out for foood and get you fatt! x]

let me give you a slight review on what i remember reading the book, 'Peter and Jane'
it was everyones favourite, back then. righttttttt?







Peter and Jane, they are friends..
Peter loves Jane,
Jane loves Peter,
but Jane has a friend,
who Peter used to date.
Peter and Jane talks everynight.
it's obvious Peter and Jane has something for one another
its like a dream come true.
but Peter and Jane couldn't tell.

both are and still is confused..
love IS blind.


*i haven't finish reading the book* hhahaha!
i wonder when will Peter and Jane get together. HAHAHHAHAHA
get the joke?
-__- nvm! so long i get it enough dy! :D

today, i told myself "Don't let go too soon, but don't hang on too long."


there's still hope.

people have scars in all posts of unexpected places,
like secret road maps of their secret person histories,
diagrams of all their own wounds.
most of our old wounds heal,
leaving nothing behind but a scar,
but some of them don't.
some wounds we carry with us everywhere,
and though the cut's long gone,
the pain still lingers.

have you ever felt so mixed up and confused tht you dont know when to cry and when not to?

these two days, it felt as if tears were trying to fight its way through.. im not sad, i have nothing to cry about. sometimes i wonder, am i just saying this to make myself feel better or do i really need to cry to let go the emotions ive been keeping in.. i still wonder... as i sit in this chair typing this out, it feels as if the tears are still fighting its way out, but im not allowing it to. who am i kidding? im not sad..why should i cry? maybe, maybe im just really confused.

do you think its ever worth it to try again?

pretty boy,

its your birthday today..

but you're not here to celebrate with us.

we miss you..

you left too soon

you were barely 17!

God should've warned you and given you more time..

i miss youu..

i hope you're having the time of your life up there now..

i love you always!

someday i'm gonna get my very own fat boy eating ice cream!

thts the way i like ittttt. :D

"every once in a while. a human fail in any kind of way. we fail, so we're able to learn later for our future. god made everyone of us different, unique in our own ways. and no one, not you, not me, is/will ever be perfect."




and


HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMMY!






I love you foreverrrr babyyyy hahaha.