Today marks the day where I would start studying harder than before, in order to achieve good grades. Really, if you asked how do I picture my future. I'd reply with a 'I don't really know'. But because I can't see a bright future now, that does not mean I can't work for it. I am gonna start working for it and not disappoint my parents any further as I already have. Not only my parents but my sisters too. I have to admit, my trials was bad. I did not put enough effort and did not give my best. Byebye first intake. I've gotta start working hard from now.

Have you ever wondered if that person in front of you is really the same person you see in the inside?
There are times where you make a mistake in trusting someone only because that someone in nice to you.
I have to admit, I've made that mistake many times.
Like Kimberly said, I've got to learn from now.
Who to trust and who not to trust.

44 more days to SPM! -___-

I'm really sorry.

this wasn't the way I pictured it.

shopping tomorrow! :D

girlie day out.

It's funny how ignorant you could be, leaving without a word or two,

and now coming back trying to prove to me that everythings just the same the way you left it.

Then you know what? you blew everything off, yet again.

I'm sorry, but I don't see that anythings gonna work out with you being so ignorant.

Like a puppet doll -__- right?

Then again, I wouldn't blame you either.

Remember the 'secret' I told you before? Well, it's all out and now I don't feel a thing.

Well, I hope you know nothing really lasts forever.

Because, people.. people don't always wait blindly without being led to anywhere.

All the best to all PMR students.

Natt, we'll go party after your papers.

This is a girl girl situation. I got this from the L word. No intentions added.
" We all love our friends, but that doesn't mean we have to act on them "

This is you

You're so much of yourself that it somewhat makes you pathetic thinking you're sooooo goddamn important in everyones life.
So, why don't you just sit down one day and just suck up everything you've said, then think again. 'have I done anything wrong?' Because this is karma. For all you know, you're making yourself sound really really stupid. REALLY!
Do you feel stupid after what you heard? LOL


Oh before I forget, I heard you sex talked your ex boyfriend and tried pushing him into sex, is that true? HAHAHAH!
Yeayea I know. I'm too much of a pussy to go right up to you and tell it to your face. Well, I'm just doing what you do best. This IS fun! :D:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! xx
I said everything in the message already.
See you in school tmr! :D
love youuu.

I have limit myself to the extend that I wouldn't go any further just so I wouldn't hurt myself. An act on selfishness.
It is a disadvantage for being someone who's so gullible.


I saw a life-sized Mike Wazowski and James P.Sullivan yesterday in Cineplex.
ah, I want Mikeeeeeeee! damn cute.

Fucking 3 weeks of trials.
FINALLY! hallelujiah
Been craving for pancakes. mmhmm
Going for it this Sat, and joining Kimmy later to celebrate Latern Festival.
I've got so many things to do, yet so lil time.
Lagoon this Sun with girlies.
Shopping next Sat with Chelle to Bangsar! then the 4 in 1 bday celebration :D at 7pm
Theme : Angels & Demons.
Not much time for entertainment actually.
SPM's in 52 days.
8 more weekends and I'll be sitting for SPM :S
I need to start studying AGAIN! -______-

Actually it doesnt really matter how they look at you, or what they think of you
You are who you are
and you've been the best being yourself
Why is it that sometimes we tend to feel so low about ourselves
That it makes it hard for us to face the world
So hard that we'd cry to sleep because theres another day ahead of us to be filled.
Why do we pick on the ones that are already weak?
I care too much bout my appearance that I've forgotten who I've turned into and who I was before.

It's not what you see, it's what you feel.

We see the good in you even if they don't.

You need not prove to them who you are at heart.

Keep them close at heart and soon they'd come to realize to see the good in you
and learn to appreciate.





If you're able to avoid the one who you once felt hurt with, then you find yourself a happier person that way

I miss my friends!
stupid SPM trials. GRR

ring me after your exams okay?

xx

I'm not gonna let it distract me.
NOOOOOOOO!





















I'm getting a new haircut soon.
Oh, and I'm taking off my braces soon. heeeeee :D

Has suicidal ever crossed your mind?

It's like, when you're given a chance to die, you tend to think twice and want to survive; you refuse. Because there's so much left for you to do. Then you think again, would things be different if you die?

But when you're not given that chance, you tend to think of commiting suicide even more. Because your life is filled with nothing but problems. You feel all alone and have no one else to have to turn to. You think suicide would help you solve everything.

Then again.. I must admit, I've thought of it many times. When I was only 10. Too young you'd say. Well, to me being a teenager isn't easy nor fun. But, I wouldn't say that my life sucks. I mean, there's many others who's barely surviving and yet trying to fight its way through life and I here, sitting down holding a knife on my right hand wanting to commit suicide. But I must say, there are things in life which can't be resolved.

There are times where I wish to die and pray so hard that one day I'd just leave all these problems. But then again, I would want to know the outcome. Would they be sad? Would they regret? Would they feel sorry? or would they be even happier without having me around? and by then, it's too late to even look back.

I have yet to learn to appreciate life. To wanting to survive this stage and see my future.
Like Mitch Albom's book on 'Tuesdays with Morrie'. In this book, Morrie said to Mitch 'I have nothing to look back at. I leave here in peace because I have nothing left. I feel content with all the years. If God wants this for me, I'm sure he has a really good reason to it and because I have nothing to regret. I leave here in peace" (something like that) He's happy to leave because he has nothing to regret about.

I guess He has His reasons.

My momma told me, that I was pretty
That I would find someone to love me
But, she didn't tell me that he would leave me
She didn't say that he'd.. he'd break my heart

The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.

One day you'll miss me like i missed you
One day you'll cry for me like I cried for you and
One day you'll love me and I won't love you

Wassap superAunty!

You're that one person in life that I will never learn to appreciate
and what more respect you.
I don't respect you because you're not worth one bit of it at all.
Sad to say, I got this from you.
Just treating you the way you treat me all the time.
Yes, I think I'm so great that I don't mind having you dead.
It would be such a relieve if you are.
I can survive without you, don't worry
Life would be filled with more happiness without you.
If only I could kill you and not be charged for murder, I would.
I'd willingly do it without thinking twice.
This is how much I hate you.
and when I grow old, I'd be glad to be away from you.
Nope, I will never learn to love you as you have never loved me.

I like it when you put your arms around my shoulder
I like it when you kiss my forehead
I like it when you tell me you love me once in awhile
or when you make an effort to write me little notes
or tell me how much you miss my smell
I like it if you look at me into my eyes and smile
I want you to trust me
I want you to understand and most importantly adore me
I don't want you to diss me or laugh at me
I don't want you to take me as a joke
We can be playful once in a while
but I need you to be serious with me sometimes
I want you to hear me out
or at least try to be there for me when I have no one else




I need you to be you, and only you!

They say if you keep dreaming of that one person,
it's the person you want to be with,
but you can't.

You don't have to kiss me on my lips to tell me you love me.
We don't have to walk hand in hand to let everyone know I'm yours.
You don't have to post our pictures up to let the whole world know we're together.
Your friends need not know about us.
You don't have to pretend to like my friends even if you don't.
You don't have to look good to impress me.
I don't need you to change because I chose to be with you.
I just need you to stay sincere to me & never lie.
It's okay if you stare at other girls, but remember to always stay true to me.


Because when I'm with you,
I want it to be us and not them.
No one has to know.
I don't need you to constantly tell me you love me.
Actions speaks better than words.
I want this to be just us & only us.

p/s : I'm not in love, really!

just wanted to post that up for the fun of it.

and really, I'm not being emotional or anything.

having history paper 2 tmr -_- hailat.

goodnight all.

xx

break-ups often happen.
we break-up because we stop compromising.
don't you think so?
it's because you stop giving in.
sometimes we break-up because feelings fade away.
or may be because we've fallen in love with another.
do you blame him because he fell for another?
or do you blame yourself because you weren't good enough?
to certain one of us, break-ups is a big impact in life
it hurst you so dearly, but not intentionally.
it may change your life, but that's if you let him in too deep.

"he can't hurt you if you don't let him"

so, why take the risk and hurt yourself?
why not live free and free from problems?
why fall in love when you know you're not ready?
break-ups often hurt another.
it's not like we want it to happen.
but sometimes its for the better.

"if it's meant to be, it's meant to be."

you cant force love, even if he's stop loving you.
look around, you're not alone.
it takes time to move on, may be a month or two
sometimes may be even a year.
take your time, no one's rushing you
its easy to fall in love, but its hard to fall out of love.

"everything happens for a reason"

hi im justyne! im one of leemin's blog author. huehuehue.

i love this bitch!

*mwah mwah*

"she always jual mahal arr. discount la sikit"

hahaha

E-X-P-E-N-S-I-V-E

okayy!

I got fatty to entertain me last night.

:D he sho cuteeeee la! haha