Sometimes I don't know what I am reading is true or the actions you tell.
I cannot tell if my instincts were right, or that I was only thinking too much.
I guess everything was just plain simple but I decided to take it the wrong way.
It was my interpretation that was to blame.
I'm giving up.
It was only a fairytale I've been chasing hoping to come true.

Albert Camus once wrote "Blessed are the hearts that can bend, they
shall never be broken"

Would it have mattered if I said I didn't like you anymore?
Would things have changed if I told you that I've been thinking of you?
Would words I utter even matter to you?
I'm hoping for the better, for something new, for something good.
Would you have been the one?
Would I even matter?

I highly doubt so.

And dear boy, you'd probably have grown hatred for me, for God knows what happened today.

You took things too personally. I won't apologise because I've done nothing.

But I'd just like to say, everything that was going on, ends here.

Goodbye boy.

"We had a relationship, we can't pretend that we didn't. But before that, we
were really close friends. There's no reason we can't have that again"

- Lucas Scott, One Tree Hill

Assumptions, people tend to make assumptions. They hesistate to confront, they are afraid of the outcome. At times, they tend to think otherwise. People don't get the things I blog. They hop hop hop and all they read are words. And at times, they tend to assume I'm talking about them or grieving on my old ex boyfriend. People make stuupid unreasonable assumptions. You need to understand me to know what am I really talking about. There's alot running in my head, many random thoughts. But it all ends in a split second. I'm not what the picture tells you. I am me, and not trying to be anyone else.



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Give up leemin, give up. You're only gonna hurt yourself in the end. Don't get yourself there anymore.

Eventhough it's hard to let go of someone you've just lost.
Though hurt and desperate. Just be sure to keep your cool, because eventually the person would come running back to you.
Because then, the person would realize that everything you did, was for the good.


Gtg, xx

Part of me wants this, but the other doesn't.
should I be going against it, or to go with it?

ugh, I've got 6 assignments due soon.
Imma kill myself now.

Sometimes, the biggest enemy turns out to be your bestest friend.
And sometimes, the person sleeping next to you is hiding so many secrets.
You'd never know what the world truly shows in the outside.
I, personally have a lot of secrets hidden, neither knows.
It's a cruel world out there, a crazy world.
Everything is possible. Nothing is impossible.

I miss school.
Didnt believe I would be saying this,
But I do! I miss my classmates.
Because it's so hard to get everyone together at once.
They're either busy with other friends, or busy with college.
I mean, how often everyone attends a gathering?
School brings people together.
I miss my besties :(

At most times, everythings controllable.

For instance, the many sticks you smoke, or the many times you eat.

And feelings, you can control.

Because if it doesn't matter to you, it wouldn't hurt.
You can make yourself feel all insecure.

Then you get all jealous, and low of yourself.

Why do this to yourself?

It's stuupid how you think otherwise when the other party's just fooling around.

The more you think, the worse it gets.

More unwanted thoughts keeps filling up.

'You're stuupid' I tell myself, when it comes to situations like this.

Goodnight all. xx

Just yesterday.
Ou, Marie Digby's showcase.
Rileys before that.

Debra

I met him, it brought feelings together.

kimmy, feeling the music in her soul.

estee & natalie.





Suat Lay, Sherlin, & Sarah.

I just realized, they're all S's -_-

Credits Kok Lim & Edwin.

I'll update on Tiesto soon.
Still yet to receive the pictures from Shaun.

Last night, called up the boys. Andrea tagged along too. Was feeling down.
And the whole night went 'Bang, bang, bang!'

You don't go telling people my deepest secret! Hah, punishment.

My crazy classmates.

our walking cupcake! :D

As much as you want to clear everything, it's not easy as it seemed to be. Part of you just wants the other person to know the whole truth, but then again, you don't really know if that person's being honest with you. And even so, nothing's gonna change anymore. Its lost of hopes. The thought kept knocking, pastering you to do it, you ignore, but how long can you ignore? I want to know the truth too, not only you. I want to know if I was 'that' fool. But then again, not all things goes your way. Just as long as you did what you have, you did a fair share of your part involving, I guess thats all to it. It all takes time, to erase the unwanted memories, the unwanted feelings, the unwanted people in life. You can only hope the best for them.

Relationships, made of two. If something, somewhere goes wrong, you blame yourself and not the third party. Then why're you blaming me -__- You talk shiits about me, yet had the face to still call me your 'bestfriend'.



"He'll get his fair share babes. Don't worry"
Thank you, you and you. Very appreciated.
xx

It all happened out of pity. Cautious, I was. Fool, he is. Excuses and lies, out from his mouth. Blames and infidelities, his doings. Childish, immature. All that concludes only to cover up his mistakes, his wrong doings. You don't matter anymore.



I'm most probably leaving to Melb next year :D:D
Still yet to confirm.
Will be uploading pictures taken today, soon enough.
xx

Sunday night.

With good company who brought cards, drinks, jokes, shisha and foosball.

"You feeling gay tonight?" Haha.

kok lim, kelim.

hasrin, pupu!

azriel and kenneth.

edwin., tambah angin.