You want love because you think that's the only happiness you can find.

You resort to love because you keep thinking it puts a smile on your face.

Because you like the adrenaline rush, through your spine and down back your knees.

Why do you kid yourself when happiness comes in many forms.

Why do you keep putting yourself into shiits like that when nothing really works?

You're feeding on love because you've set your mind onto some ridiculous philosophy.

Because your family never really taught you true love.

Tonight, you told me you're done with love, that you're putting it aside for the better.

That's definitely the stuupidest thing you could ever think of.

When the day comes, when you hit yourself in the head, get yourself an ice cream, think again, life isn't that bad.

Stay with love, it'll continue giving you undivided/unconditional love from others.

You're worth it all.

Infatuation,


They only last for a bit.

It gives you the butterflies in your stomach, the gush of adrenaline, but little do we know, it only lasts for awhile.

As much as we hope to stay that way, change is what we'd ought to adapt ourselved into.
No one's really the same.

Feelings, they differ through time.

What's worse is, we thought. We keep thinking nothings gonna change. That infatuation leads to something better

But, it's only an infatuation until you get yourself falling deeper.
That's when the pain kicks in.



And little as you know, you can't get yourself out of. It hurts when things change. I want changes, I only want to be happy, at least for a bit longer.

Why do we get ourselves into this?

When everythings going good, and smooth.
Tragic comes running to you.

Why does things has to change?

Change,
We don't like it, we fear it. But we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. It hurts to grow, anybody who tell you isn't, is lying. But here's the truth, sometimes the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes...sometimes change is good. Sometimes change is everything.

- Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy, Season IV

The truth is hard, the truth is awkward and very often the truth hurts. I mean, people say they want the truth, but do they really mean it? Sometimes we tell the truth because, the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to really hear it for ourselves. And sometimes we tell the truth because we can't help ourselves. Sometimes we tell them because we owe them, at least that much. - Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy, Season IV

If you really gotta know I'm not doing so good.
Turned out to hurt more than I thought it would.

Cause I,
Just can't handle losing you again.
But the last thing I want is just to be your friend.
Been through this same thing time and time again.
Let's pretend.



Let's pretend everythings fine,
Put on our fake smiles and keep wasting our time.
Let's pretend we're fine,
Go out in style and come home in denial.

I wanna know how you're doing, I wanna know if you're alright, but you're not letting me in. You're making me go crazy as to how worried I am, here. So afraid to call up your friends who doesn't bother answering my questions. I don't know if this, you're pulling a prank on or if its really happening. But I care, I care for you as a friend, and I want to know if you're alright. God, I don't know if I'm able to sleep tonight. I need to know that you're alright, and not picking up my calls. I really hope you're alright.

Even the bad turns good some day. I believe what I believe; everyone change, if love manage to squeeze itself in between. And boy oh boy, you are wrong to ever judge me that way. You'll have to pay for the damages you've caused.

Tagged by Bryan Lim

Hey! Just because I entitle this tag as something something PORN, don’t precept me as a pervert! Hahaha! Read on this tag & then you’ll understand why this title… (;

a. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc on shuffle.
b. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
c. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
d. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
e. Put this on your blog.

1. If someone says,”Is this okay?”
Taio Cruz - Come on Girl

2. How would you describe yourself?
Cypress Hill - Insane in the Brain

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Better than Ezra - Good

4. How do you feel today?
Debby Boone - You light up my life

5. What is your life’s purpose?
Michael Buble - LOVE

6. What is your motto?
Mandy Moore - I wanna be with You

7. What do your friends think of you?
Code Red - This is our Song

8. What do you think of your parents?
Janice - Tai Kor

9. What do you think about very often?
Emi Fujita - To Daydream with you

10. What is 2+2?
Big Brovaz - Favourite Things

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Liu Ge Hong - Cai Hong Tian Tang

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Jay Chou - Lan Se Feng Bao

13. What is your life?
Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child of mine

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
South Park - Uncle Fucker

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Bowling for Soup - Punk rock 101

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Jordin Sparks - No air
( I can't believe this. hate this song so much and I'm gonna dance to this song ON MY WEDDING DAY?!)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Enrique Iglesias - Hero

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Ronan Keating - Everyday I love you

19. What is your biggest fear?
Click Five - Just the girl

20. What is your biggest secret?
Alanis Morrissette - Not the doctor

21. What do you think of your friends?
Jo Sung mo - To heaven

22. What will you post this as?
Brian Mcknight ft Justin - My kinda girl

23. What song would you play during your first time having sex?
Pharrell Williams - Where's Yours at

I tag no one.

I always thought that you could never stand on your two feet without me,
but I guess I was fooling myself, that I am, the one, who can't lose you.

You know, after some time, when you think everythings going well, and it all gets bad. You turn to hope, hoping for it to get better, but you're losing your mind. What you do not know is that it gets worse every day. Nothing beats the heartache. Guessing its all true, not everyone has their happy endings and nothing really lasts forever. This is MY happy ending.

my current fav, ----> my sifu! *coughs*

It's so stuupid of you to think that the world's gonna believe every word you say. You and I both know the truth. Why do you even bother lying to yourself? Face it! because you made it happen. You know, all these times you've been telling me how you were treated and how badly hurt you were and all that, I believed, because I trusted you. But look at it, things are different. You're lying through your teeth thinking I'm ever so stuupid to believe you. Yes I know, it has nothing to do with me at all. Guessing you're happier this way. Go on lying to yourself, it wont do you good. I just wish for you to wake up one day and realise what you are doing to yourself; You're killing yourself!

p/s: Someday I'll prove to you that waiting for me was worth it. I'm gonna change, but its gonna take time. I hope you'd wait and not bail out on me.