I still do get insecure by the little things that keeps going around.
Words that are uttered from others.
Rumours that gets to me.
The burning heart felt.
Just for one second, it felt as if I needed you back.
"I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in."
Infidelities.
Intimidated by the old ones.
"Age isn't a matter"
Maturity helps better.
Jealousy takes over.
Feelings go phantom.
Confused? Still am.
Melodies brings back memories.

I've always envied those who are able to keep their relationship moving.
Whereas, mine always stops.

No doubt, I miss having someone to cuddle in with.

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Classes were resumed.
Classmates, my fav ofcourse!
*parasiteeee* haha.
My habit has worsen.
Lecturers are already handing out assignments on our first day of classes.
God! -____-

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Mervin wants me to promote his blog. So there!
He claims that its the most happening blog.
So, do check it out.

It's nice writing letters sometimes.
That person need not be away from the city, for you to write a letter.
Writing a letter means letting that someone know how much you care.
You can be writing letters to those who sits next to you in class,
or someone who lives few blocks away.
Letters can be kept as memories.
Looking back, it holds loads of memories,
of whom i was close to.
Sometimes looking back at your past, brings tears to your eyes.
Both, happy and sad.



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Mulgrath spent haagen daz! :D and transformed into Leonardo Dicaprio cause Mulgrath took a stick! Haha.

After much consideration, I've decided to leave my hair long.
And I'm gonna get tatts soon! :D

The next one will be a better one, i know.

I know what I am and who I've become.

If you don't like me, then why bother being friends/lovers?

Today, you pissed me off.

Honestly speaking, yes.. I still love you.

But whats the point right, you may ask?

I confused you, I hurt you.

For all, I'm sorry.

You did too.

Because I'm confused, I gave you hope,

BUt took it all away at once,

Because I didn't want to confuse you further.

Being the selfish me, all I could think was ME.

Yes, that's right, ME!

In a relationship, it should have been WE.

But I made it ME.

I said I'd move on, I will.

It didn't matter how much I've lost.

When there's nothing left for me to look back at.

Today, I disappoint myself.

Because I'm stuupid.

Because I've said things I shouldn't have.

But whats said, has already been said.

Its irreversible.

I threw tantrums.

Because you were the closest to me.

I thought you'd give me the attention I needed.

But I guess I was wrong.

Because I pushed you away myself.

I will pay my debts, for all that I've cost you and myself.

Because now, sorry cannot mend your heart.

Sorry is now only a word.

A word with no more meaning to it.

Cause I've caused so much and have said so many times,

that sorry, it wouldn't mean a thing to you anymore.

Here's to the end of our lines.

I'll pay my debts, I definitely will.

When relationships fail, it only shows how much of a bad friend I was.

Definitely not someone worth to love.

Tuning in; Maroon 5 - Better that we break.

When Natt came back for 2 weeks.
Pictures @Souled out.
We kissed, we hugged, we drank, we ate, we talked.
And now, I miss her! :(


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I'm stuupid.
Coll results are out.
So unexpected.
Baddd. badd results :'(
Bad dayy.
Got into an accident.
BAD LUCK LAAA!
okay, i'm officially stuuupid.
good lord.

goodnight. xx

I miss college! :(

i miss you guys.



"I think it is a matter of love; the more you love a memory, the stronger and stranger it is" - Vladimir Nabokov

I stop having something to wake up to.

Tagged by Bryan


Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.


1. Who is your all-time inspiration?
- me myself and i.

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
- Yes.

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
- Chelle, because she's my bestfriend.
- Sean Bein, cause he's buff and he can protect me, HAHA!
- Natasha, cause she'll make me happy.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
- Paris

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
- To have unlimited dreams, like bryan. haha!

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- Yes.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
- My friends.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
- Slap the whole million dollar bill on my step mom's face & leave.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- I would.

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
- He is a pimp, computer geek, nice guy!

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- HAHA, way too much.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
- Irritating, though im irritating myself too.

13. What is your ambition?
- Differs through time.

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
- I'd only listen to those who are close to me, who points them out. Keeping quiet is like running away from it.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- Value life, life is short. Everything and everyone is important.

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
- I wouldnt say I am, since step mom controls my spending. -___-

17. Is your boyfriend/girlfriend more important than your friends?
- Nope, friends are who I am today. They'd be the last person I'd wanna lose.

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
- Rudeness, Haha!

19. Whats the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?
- Someone... had sex with someone else. Which is damn disgusting. Cause the girl is....

20. What do you wish to have now?
- When I want something, GIVE IT TO ME! :D

Haha. So much for bragging.
God's punishment.
For ever thinking you're better than me.
God is great!


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To love is to accept, to forgive and forget.
to understand, appreciate and to trust.
In the end of the day,
You are who you are,
You are who you've always been.
Choice is, accept changes, prepare for changes
Or let go if you have to.
Let it be simple,
Stick to what you think is right,
Be happy because you are!

Though feeling lost and empty.
Though hurt and gone.
It was for the best.
Here's to the end of my journey.

“Time is free, but it's priceless. You can't own it, but you can use it. You
can't keep it, but you can spend it. Once you've lost it you can never get it
back.”

When the time is right, when everythings all calm and steadily
Time will tell if we are meant to be.

Blogs are getting overrated.
Even some tom dick and harry owns a blog.
Nerds from my school has blogs too.
My god, since its getting overrated.
Do you think I should shut down mine?

You dnt have to be pretty to be loved.
You dnt have to put on make-ups to impress those guys.
You dnt have to dress up in smth you're uncomfortable in to show off to the rest that you've got a hot body.
Just be you, and be who you are. and eventually...
Eventually, someone would love you for you.
It is whats inside that counts.
The beauty of them all.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can
learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them, when they're
right, you believe lies so you eventually trust no one but yourself, and
sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together

--Marilyn Monroe

Since there's only 4 days left. *anticipate anticipate*
May be I should start reading my "A million little lies" book,
and hopefully that'll help me kill time faster! :D

goodnight. xx

"The world's extremely small. Careful of the things you say, you'll never know who's eavesdropping"

I mean it when I say I'll stop respecting you.
Because in my eyes, you're nothing.
Nothing!
I hate you, and that's final.
And I swear to god,
I'll not talk to you in the future.
I'll pay you every single cent and never speak to you again.
You talk to me as if talking to a dog.
You can't even look me in eyes,
You expect me to answer you honestly,
Yet when I do, it's still wrong.
It didn't matter what I say,
Because you would somehow get back at me.
WTF you talking.
If I had a choice, I would really love to kill you.
You don't even give me the freedom to speak,
Because you think you're always right.
You're right, always right!
If I ever have the chance to tell you the things I hate about you,
I would sure as hell do.
Ya ya, I'm worst.
Don't know how to appreciate, blablabla. STFU
I'll never respect you, stop dreaming!

yeapyeap I love esteee! :D

" If you ever loved, been loved, or wanted to be in love, you have had to face a frustrating fact: different people can mean different things by that simple phrase "I love you." "

----John Alan Lee

Ugh, 5 more days! it's taking too long.
3 months sounds really short.
5 days feels even longer
I miss Roger! :(
Finals tmr, and I've not started studying :S
How?

I've been reminiscing.

Which brought dissappointments and happiness to life.

But what's the point of reminiscing?

When everything's unrepeated.

Unable to rewind time.

Erase the pain.

And repeat the happy, happy times.

8tv, inconjuction of the One in a Million recording sessions.












Valentine's Day!

I should've known better.

You've always liked the things I did.

Always wanted the things I had.

All these, I should've known better.

But you were a friend,

I saw your acts,

It told me something.

But I thought it was my insecurities.

I guess afterall, it was all true!







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I feel trapped and confused.