Jasmine stayed over.

But, that's not the main reason.
You see.....
My parents, no, scratch that.. the-two-nerve-wrecking-assholes
THINKS I'M A FUCKING LESBIAN!


Reasons:-


Because I have short hair
- I got my hair cut because I'm sick of my old hair.
and I also wanted to get a boy cut because I wanted something new.

My friends have short hair
- MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS LA!

I have lesbian friends
- Excuse me, since when a mother fucking ALL GIRLS school has NO lesbians?
S.M.K Sri Aman, Taman Petaling... Without a doubt, have at least catered 20 lesbians students, yet they have to accept it, it's an ALL GIRLS school.
It was their mistake putting me into that cheap ass-money-wiping school.
Yet, they blame me. Because they THINK I'm a fucking lesbian.
Every year, I'd ask the both of them to let me transfer into a co-ed school.
But they refuse. WHY? because of their insecurities!

I'm always going out with GIRLS!
- I remembered, back in form 1. When I use to hang out with Sarah Lim and a bunch of Subang GUYS! You see, back then IF I told them they'd be guys going, they'll forbid me. So I lied (haha) and they caught me red handed after a couple of times. That bastard (you know who), got all furious and started screaming at me, IN THE MALL, IN FRONT OF ALL MY FRIENDS. (Yes, embarrassing!) He slapped me and told me not to hang out with guys anymore. So since then, I never really DID bother telling them. I'd lie all the time. Until I was together with Thomas, they knew about him, they didn't really bother actually, then we broke up. It's been 1 year 3-4months now since we broke up. So, you knoww... When you're single you hang out with your friends and meet new girls&guys right? So, I've only been hanging out with girlfriends alot lately. I mean, we've not been hanging out much and the group of guys we used to hang out with, is not really a group of friends anymore and so we decided that it was no use calling them out anymore. Then, the bitch actually asked me 'Why dont you mix with guys anymore?' (in an unpleasant tone) and demanded for an answer. HELLO, when I fucking hang out with guys too much, you guys get so fucking insecure and keep asking me who is the guy, how did i met him and where is he from. I got sick of all those and plus, most of my guy friends are busy spending time with their gfs. What do you expect?!




*goes of to fucking tuition*
*back, after 2 hrs*


Last night, Jasmine hugged me
- HAHA, this! You will laugh. Well, my parents were forcing me to find out bout new tuition centres. Say I don't wanna study and stuff. So, they decided to send me to a tuition centre. I got all pissed, started pointin middle fingers behind their backs. Jasmine knew I was pissed, so she hugged me and told me not to cry. The bastard then saw and kept looking at us from the rear view mirror. Hoping to see that maybe, you know, we'd kiss or do something. When we got off the car, he kept staring at us. Which was quite obvious and ofcourse I got even more pissed la. LIKE WTH right? Whats his problem la!! When I got home, I started complaining to everyone. Then, my sister came into my room and said 'YOU KNOW WHAT? YOUR PARENTS THINKS YOU'RE A LESBIAN HAHAHAHAHAHHA!'. At that moment, I really didn't know whether to cry or to laugh. She kept laughing at me and teasing me 'lesbolesbolesbo'. Then she called my other sister and told her about it. My second sister got home, opened my room door and greeted me with 'Hi, lesbian!'. I couldn't stop crying.






Seriously, they're just blaming me for their own mistakes.
-THEY were the ONE who sent me to an ALL GIRLS school when I wanted to go to a co-ed school.
-THEY were the ONE who gets insecure all the time whenever I tell them I'm out with a guy.
-So, am I to be blamed? Even IF I was a lesbian, what the fuck are they/you gonna do about it?
I'm turning gay now!

and if you're gonna give me the whole
*your parents love you, they're just concerned blablabla*
then don't bother talking to me.
I don't need to hear your whole you-know-what.

sundays are taxis day!
fucker, i took cab the whole day.
and its no fun
i wasted 30 bucks on cab okay!
so i hung out with kimmy, chelle and melia.

i chose to take this challenge
not to hurt myself,
but to have tht particular feeling again.

and im happy!

because they always say,

he cant hurt you if you dont allow him to

x]

Create your own Friend Test here

Can one desire too much of a good thing?

in relationships, couples often argue
they often forbid one another because they feel insecure!
relationships shouldnt work that way.
its suppose to be something fun and enjoyable.
why does some of us take it so seriously that it hurts our loved ones?
when you forbid someone to do something,
you're just asking the one you love to not be themselves anymore
the more you forbid your partner, the more they'd tend lie
so why do we make things so complicated
when its clearly shown that its simple
we must always compromise in a relationship
a relationship works with two and not one, so dont be selfish
care about their feelings
take time to hear them out and understand them
because being in a relationship is suppose to be something fun
something sweet but not bitter
never jump into conclusions
most of all, trust the ones you love and love them for them.






*

chehh. i talking like some pro only. HAHA
my own relationship, didnt work out itself.
and im here teaching ppl how to save their relationship
CHEHH

what is the one thing you miss most about your friends?






times when a stranger had almost everything you went through before.
times when you never really realised wht you've missed in the past.
times whn you doubted and this person comes back and tells you, you still have me.
times whn someone gets you into trouble by just laughing along.
times when the smallest thing is actually quite big.
times when nothing else matters and you feel comfortable with everyone.
times when you had no one to turn to, and he was right infront of you.
times where strangers like us grew and loved.
times where you don't really see the one you miss.
times where you never expect tht one person to always love you for you.
times where we'd go crazy and just laugh all night.
times where we have nothing to do but hang around under the sun.
times where we'd laugh and make fun of each other.
times where we'd just hold a camera and keep the button clicking.
times where we are there for the ones we've nvr really talked to.






and one day, you realise it's all gone.
and someone unexpected comes along the way
and puts you back to where you are
and comforts you even when you're most in need
and tells you, 'leemin, you always have me. you're not alone'
and even if the world wide world doesnt love you anymore, i still do.
puts a smile on your face, knowing that..
though you've missed out part of your life.
that it was all worth it.
but it nails back down to one
and that EVERYONES JUST THE SAME!
but things has changed.
thank you, thank you for being there for me :)

people, everyday i see people

out on the streets, in the mall

in classes, in stores

and in schools.

these people, they are all the same

only different at the outside

some are different in the inside

but people i see, with my own bare eyes

they are all the same.

we are all hypocritical.

we live in a world full of denial.

friends, i see everyday.

are not different at any places.

we change in time.

for better and sometimes for worst.

some realizes, some doesn't

these people, im afraid of

because im always afraid of whats ahead of me.

you were someone who was good at heart,
you'd sacrifice your all just for one,
though you may have lied and broke my heart,
but, let me tell you this boy, i'll be missing you forever.
a place i see, reminded me of you
a song i hear, always made me smile
it reminded me so much of you.
you deserved better.

seriously if you have a prob with the things i blog or the way i blog
thn.. FUCK OFF! you dont have to read. bunch of idoits.

okay. so, i've been stressing for my exams
FOR THE FIRST TIME!
i dont usually study THAT hard for my exams
not until last week.
been really worked up
like seriously, ive nvr EVER studied that hard before
and guess what?
the stuffs i studied did not come out for my exams
im so gonna fail.
and <--- thts the lamest guy.
he figured, since he had the same lollipop
which he got and have not eaten since valentines
he decided to take a pic like i did. lol stupid fellow!

* how do you feel? :/

and thts just the begining.

thrs long more to go

THE NEW ME!

sometimes you make me smile like tht <---- HAHA! sometimes you make me shy too.

because you keep reminding me of the way i like you. and i like you because i think your gayness made you cute. haha!

okay, so i got home and you're sound asleep.

goooodnight! and im going to bed now too.

Xxx