Just ONCE

Just once, be happy, be crazy.

For just once, be yourself.

These little neurons are running out.

The liquid is drying.

Red is turning black.

And suddenly everything seems so dark.

Is this the place I hoped to be?

Is this the place for me?

Cautious mind battling over a playful heart.

Momma warned me but I couldn’t see.

Am I blinded by her warnings?

Or am I blinded by affection?

We are on our own.

And just once, we are who we want to be.

I don't need you to forgive me over these tears I've cried for you. That's the only reason you forgave me. I don't deserve this..

I don't need anyone to wipe these tears. These tears are tears for the bad I've done. There's no point trying to make things good, in the end, we're all seen as the bad one.. I don't deserve you or anyone. And it answers to why I've lost you!

Forgive my lack of consistency,

What's been going on?

Nothing much, been loading movies I've not watched before and awesome cartoons.

I've also been day dreaming, picturing myself with my girlies under one roof; really excited bout that.

2 years, we've been together for 2 years.

It only feels like few months.

You don't bore me although sometimes you make me sad/angry pushes me a step away from you.

Its been 741 days together.

No, there were no gifts/roses.

Just really nice Japanese dinner for the two of us.

I guess this is one of our best achievements in maintaining the relationship.

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My hatred towards you hasn't stop growing.

Most of the time I give in to you because he told me to.

We've been through a lot.

Yes, you've helped me and been there for me.

And I pushed you away.

But you never apologise for one big mistake you did.

And for that, I shan't forgive you.

It's been a year.

Welcomed baby Alayna on the 10.10.10






Ethan's bigger now. He's so smart n cute.
Such a darling..

Okay, I'm kinda new at this again.

I don't really know what to blog about.

A whole lot of what's been happening or to write based on my emotions?

I just feeling like writing.

Shall start now...

Well, firstly, I'm most probably going Adelaide by late Feb.

Gotta get my confirmation letter, Med check up, Visa done and I'm off.

This year, will be celebrating New Years in Langkawi.

Other than that, mmm.. will post pictures of

events during these few months of absence.

Enjoy..

Dinner date w 3 other couples

Last presentation

Farewell dinner w classmates

Paul's departure

Ah Kong's Bday

Holiday w his fam

Kak min's bday

Photobooth w ivy, joee n pariah

Malacca w loves

House 'cooling'

Scrapbook day

As we looked up in the sky,

I had my head on your shoulder,

We watched hours pass by,

Our hearts grew fonder,

Tears in my eye,

The screaming grew louder,

Baby baby oh my,

Will we ever be forever?

Howdy ho,

I haven't been blogging in a while.

Doubt that I have anymore readers :(

I wanna make a change.

Be it emotionally or physically.

Although I've already made few changes,

I don't think it has changed me.

What do I want to be when I'm older?

I really don't know.

Perhaps a journalist or a photographer or a card designer or just an ordinary housewife of a rich man (lol)

I never had an ambition since young.

Nothing I really want to be or envious of.

May be, perhaps, I just want to be me.

Mmmm...

I miss my baby nephew!