Recently I've stopped giving people second chances.
Because I realize, it's nvr worth it.
People tend to take things for granted.
Did you think I was a toy?
Someone to come to when you're lonely.
And if I leave this time, I'm gonna be strong.
I'm not gonna look back.
Because I know, if I do.
It'll hurt again.
Because not everyone deserves second chances.


Last night, I gave you an option.
It was yours to decide.
It was it or me.
But I figured you hate to have to choose.
Because I know you want it so much.
And you sounded really regretful for being with me,
I could tell by the tone of your voice.
And if you're gonna leave me for this.
I promise you I'll never come back.
I'll never lay eyes on you. not anymore.
All you see in me was bad intentions.
You said really hurtful things last night.
Was it my fault?
I thought I was doing good for you.
But I guess I was wrong.
You said I was best.
but may be, it was all a lie.
May be I'm doing too much.
Making you feel trapped with me.
I guess I should like you free,
free like a bird.
If that's what you want. Let me know.
Because I don't want to see you sad anymore.
It hurts me even more.
I guess I am really doing too much.
I really have nothing much to say.
It's up to you now.
The decision is yours.


I can't believe how much of bad you see in me.
Now, I know what's going on in your head the whole time.

I wouldn't appreciate the things you've done for another.
The things you repeat from your past.
Because I really don't appreciate it, and I would not learn how to.

He did not change, not one bit. It was me who saw him in a different
perspective. It was me who was caught up with all the negative thoughts. It was
me who kept thinking he's changed. It's me who's insecure. It's me who's
changed.

We tend to blame the other when for all we know, it was our insecurities overlooking the situation. Human beings are born judgemental. So don't blame me if I've judged you in a certain way you didn't like.





College is fine, the girls are good.
No drama, not anytime soon.
Exams next week, so soon!
4 assignments due this fri!
Been missing out on my high school friends.
I miss my boyfriend, that's for sure.
Lastly, I've been feeling veryyyy insecure.
I don't know why.

Need time off.

goodnight.xx

bubbles :D

1st presentation with xinyi.

genting!

chelle's farewell.

Though I never believe in forever,
but I know we'd last,
We'd last as long as we want to.
Because I know its real
And I know
you're worth every minute of my life.
I love you.

How do you express yourself, in a way that you can't?

Do you cry or do you laugh it out?

How is it possible for you to put your feelings into words, when you really miss someone?

Because I can't.

All I can think of is to cry.

To cry everything out and tell him I love you.

Would tht be enough?

Today's like every other weekdays.

Where I'd feel a lil more lonely and empty in the inside.

Because you're not here to go through my lil hectic life.

I hope you'll call soon.

Cause I've missed you.

I love you!

I consider myself very lucky,
for the fact that most of my friend's significant ones are leaving for good.
And mine's coming back in 50 days time! :D:D:D

A reason why it's good that I'm here..
It's cause when you people go off to college, ya'll never do have time for anything else but to stress about college !
Which means, no time for others, others loike ME.
AlwaysBUSYBUSYBUSYBUSYBUSYBUSYBUSY.

COLLEGE SUCKS ! Imma blow yours up (x
imissyoulaimin.

I'm under stress!
I'm a week behind.
Assignments not done.
Stresssssssssssssssssss -_-
College is far worst than school.
You gotta meet the due date or you'll get a z-e-r-o.
Ugh, I shouldn't have started so early.
Now that I did, I regret.
I'm not ready for homeworks and commiments.
On the way to Hartamas today accompanying Natalie for her dental appointment,
I realized something..
That I did not set my priorities right.
Its just not right.
I have to do something about it.
Yet I'm always being distracted by entertainments. :S
Ugh, anyways gtg.
Gotta do my assignments.
xx

I've never believed in forever, and I never will.
Not even when I'm married one day.
Because for all we know, people change..
And when we do, feelings change too.
I would not go further, as today you've already showed me what you see in me all along.
A person who's selfish.
You say the same things you've said to her before.
And it makes no difference.
Not one bit.
It hurts because I'm no different than the rest.
In fact, I'm far worst than they are.
I don't know what to do to change the fact that I actually need you.
Today was a bad day
for the both of us.
It felt as if it was gonna end.
It hurt even more to kno the things I never knew.
I'm the cause of it.
And I regret my doings.
All I needed was for you to need me as much as I needed you.
I'm a monster!

Baby,

sometimes I feel bad for what has happened in your past.

How unappreciative she was..

After all you've done.

And sometimes, because of that..

I tend to compare and wonder what made you this way.

Am I doing too much or am I doing too little?

At times, I don't even know whats going on in your head.

What you'd be thinking of me.

But for all I know, is that you're worth the time

And I'm willing to wait.

Love could be doubtful at times.

There's some things I've gotta start cutting down on.
Something that apparently was killing my friends too.
I'm a monster.
I've gotta cut down!

I was just over looking this situation
Where this girl and a guy takes its place in
When you trust your one friend so much.
Too much, that he manage to go round and behind your back to get your girl.
Do you know?
Did you even notice?
We're you even aware that your friend,
The one you trust so much is doing that to you?
Or you just don't care, because you were too ignorant?
I feel bad for you, really!
I wish to tell, but I can't
Cause she's my friend too.
Because maybe for all we know, you were too busy with your own life to even be worrying about your relationship.
Sometimes it breaks me too, to see this happen to you.
I hope the best for you, my friend!

Morale of the story : Never trust anyone too much, because even the person you trusts the most, would eventually hurt you whether intentionally or unintentionally.

'08 is gonna be a good year!
as '07 has been.
We all had our share of laughter and tears.
And this year, it would be a good year.
Though I did not spend it with someone who's close at heart,
but I'm sure we'll get through this together.
Friends have come and go.
Lovers have broken a heart or two.
But forgiveness shall always be in you.
For no one wishes for things like that to happen.
Chelle's leaving so sooon :(
Anyways, Happy New Year!
And I hope this year, would be the best years of your life! :D
It's amazing how a short trip, brought all of us closer at heart.

Surprised, I am.
You called today, surprisingly.
I was looking forward to this weekend.
I got worried when you didn't get your phone on NYE.
But today, you called.
I was at the verge of just ignoring the call.
But something was telling me that I had to pick it up.
And without knowing, you said "Hey baby!"
I got shocked!
I was up on stage
I didn't know what emotions to show.
I couldn't believe that it was you on the phone.
I stoned, I didn't know what to say.
Surprised I was!
All I could think of was to scream out loud,
telling you how much I miss you.
But you see, I can't
Cause there were *too* many people around me.
Then you said "Wait wait! I need to know.. Are you still waiting for me, baby?"
Without hesistating, I screamed and said "YESSS! OMG YESS!"
I was surprised, very!
You made my day.
You really did.
And I love you, Roger.

66 more days!

In about 24 hours after, I'll be able to talk to him.
This is sad, I never thought it would be *this* hard, honestly! :S
I feel really lost recently.
I feel out of place.
Even on the first day of coll.
It just feels so wrong.
9 more weeks.
I hope in this 9 weeks, it'll be easy for me
as it would for you.
I miss you, boyfriend!