I wonder if I was meant for you.

I've never believed in forever, and I never will.
Not even when I'm married one day.
Because for all we know, people change..
And when we do, feelings change too.
I would not go further, as today you've already showed me what you see in me all along.
A person who's selfish.
You say the same things you've said to her before.
And it makes no difference.
Not one bit.
It hurts because I'm no different than the rest.
In fact, I'm far worst than they are.
I don't know what to do to change the fact that I actually need you.
Today was a bad day
for the both of us.
It felt as if it was gonna end.
It hurt even more to kno the things I never knew.
I'm the cause of it.
And I regret my doings.
All I needed was for you to need me as much as I needed you.
I'm a monster!