I wonder if I was meant for you.

ive been dating this guy for abt 8 mths

till he ended it. it wasnt all his fault

it was part of mine too
we had our ups and downs

i remembered smth, smth sweet he did for me

well to me it was sweet la

it was the starting of our relationship

whn our parents didnt kno bout us yet

so, tht night i told him i was gonna have a fam dinner in taipan

i thought since he lived near taipan he could drop by

he had to walk frm one end to the other end just to see me

he told me to come out, but i couldnt

afraid tht my parents would scold

i was only form 3

parents didnt even allow me having male friends

yes yes my parents are ulu ppl. haha

so yea, we were together for only a couple of days

since i couldnt walk out of the restaurant

i told him to just walk pass

and told him walking pass would make me happy alrd

so he did. he walk passed the restaurant

happy enough he smiled at me and walked off

tht was one of the sweetest moments tht i nvr did forget

but unfortunately things just had to end

as month after month passed by

we realised things between us wasnt working anymore

both of us made many mistakes

many unwanted doings. just to make each other jealous

chilidish as it sounds, i only wanted to feel loved

who doesnt? lol

our very first breakup was on the 1 January 2006

the night before he told me tht he loved me alot

and tht he'll nvr leave me

but sadly, things got in our way

he let me go. and me? i went away willingly

nvr thinking bout wht the consequences would be

i couldnt accept being apart for one day

i decided to get back and we did

and yes! eversince then we've been breaking up

things got a lil rough. started calling each other names

eventually everything ended

and we both realised tht thrs no way we'll ever get back together again

knowing it'll nvr work out

so we both decided to go on our own seperate ways

i kno this may sound gay, but sometimes i still do miss him

ofcourse feelings are gone

we're friends now. he has girlfriend alrd

and im really happy for him as i am happy with myself now

as for now, im single and im happy :)

p/s: i nvr did regret one bit. i may have said tht once but come to think of it again. i really appreciated wht we shared. the love and care. and for now, i'm gonna be a lil more careful with who i fall for and who i pick. i love my girlfriends. thank you for being thr for me whn i was going thru a rough time. and not only to my girlfriends but those we helped me get thru all this. i kno this is a lil too late to say thank you. but i really appreciated it. :)