I wonder if I was meant for you.

sometimes they watch you cry..



no, i dont mean youu.
prolly, you! i dont knowww...
i might say, things are getting out of hands.
this isnt me, the foolish old shit who doesnt kno how to think.
i do think! i think think think and think!
but things has just been getting out of hands.
maybe... just maybe.. because, ive changed!
i couldnt possibly tell.. not a single bit..
the change in me which i couldnt see..
no, not in the mirror..
but in the eyes of others.
and yet i kept asking myself..
have i changed? i wonder.....
these questions, these feelings, these thoughts
have stuck in me.
once again, its repeating itself.
i'm stuck.. deep down somewhere
no, i cant keep these feelings in me anymore..
no, not these thoughts..
somehow, just somehow...its killing me inside..
after all, i might say...life goes on
mistakes i've made, i cant change
if only God would grant me a wish, i would wish for an eraser.
to erase all the past and the pain im encountering nowww...
im a fool, i kno i am!
i've been bad..
sigh, i was always too ego to say this..
i apologise for all the mistakes ive done..
for all tht ive caused..
im sorry!






i saw flashes..
history is repeating itself..
i see someone else..
some who doesnt look like me

in the mirror. sigh.

i'm not me!
ive kept too manyyy..
i a fool.
the biggest fool you can find!








ive got no one to turn to