I wonder if I was meant for you.

I have every say to all my doings. I choose to ignore questions from friends. I change the channel anytime I want. Because I know talking about it, thinking about would only make you, me feel worse. If only God presented me with a erasable past, or something to keep my mind off it. I know ignoring is not a solution, but since God did not give me the ability to erase painful past, then ignore is the only solution. Death, every once in a while comes running into mind. It greets me with a 'Hello friend, you look down today, come with me and I'll bring you to some place nice' and sometimes I come knocking on it's door saying 'Please let me in' If only life was filled with more laughter and less problems or body without a brain to think or perhaps a heart. Guess I'm too young to complain. I'm guilty, I feel the guilt everytime I start thinking. IF ONLY GOD GAVE ME AN ERASERRR!